I hate nights like this one
I’m awake and I feel so empty
I honestly sometimes want to go back two years into the past and start everything anew. 2010 has been the worst year I’ve ever had to deal with. It started off with my heart getting torn out my chest, and along the path toward what I am today, I’ve had to deal with remembering the 2 weeks that led to the huge downfall that happened through memories, and even worse, dreams. I still play the songs I played those two weeks. I still feel the pain that I did from that time. I guess I’m not letting those fragments fade away because I like the pain.
Pain makes me remember that things like this can make you want to crawl into a hole and die
Pain makes me realize that I won’t trust anyone like I did back then ever again