The Restoration of Forgotten Memories...

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jenniferrfang:

your scanner is so nice! 

now everyone can see my beauty clearly :D

I look like I’m dying. I WAS DYING. but yes my scanner is win.

10 January 2012 reblog: michizure


hamburglr:

First, go grab some headphones. The best ones you’ve got. If the best ones you’ve got are these suckers (or something similar), you should really go buy new ones, but use the best you’ve got for right now.

Take a break from whatever you’re doing for 2 minutes and listen, but just listen to the whole thing, even if you have to multi-task.

Headphones on? Ok. Good.

Now, press play.


“Upular (3D Audio Version)” - Pogo

(via michizure)

6 January 2012 reblog: hamburglr


I’ll keep this in mind

"Suicide by bridge is gruesome, and death is almost certain. People have survived the fall, but not many. You might survive if you hit the water feet first and come in at a slight angle.
The impact is tremendous. The body goes from roughly 75 to 80 mph to nearly zero in a nanosecond. The physics of inertia being what they are, internal organs tend to keep going. The force of impact causes them to tear loose. Autopsy reports typically indicate that the jumpers have lacerated aortas, livers, spleens and hearts. Ribs are often broken, and the impact shoves them into the heart or lungs. Jumpers have broken sternums, clavicles, pelvises and necks. Skull fractures are common.
Which means you die one of two ways, or a combination of both. One, you hit the water and the impact kills you. Sometimes the jumper is knocked unconscious. Other times, the jumper survives for a time. The person can be seen flailing about in the water, trying to stay afloat, only to succumb to the extensive internal bleeding. Death can take seconds or minutes. Two, you drown. You hit the water going fast, and your body plunges in deep. Conscious or otherwise, you breathe in saltwater and asphyxiate.
You can usually tell which bridge jumpers drowned: Frothy mucus bubbles from the nose.
"Some people seem to think that jumping off the bridge is a light, airy way to end your life, like going to join the angels," said Marin County Coroner Ken Holmes, talking in the reception area of the coroner’s office in San Rafael. "I’d like to dispel that myth. When you jump off the bridge, you hit the water hard. It’s not a pretty death."
One of Holmes’ investigators, Darrell Harris, walks by at that moment and overhears. “Yup,” he says. “Multiple blunt-force trauma.”
In other words, you die the same way as someone hit by a car.”

17 May 2011


She said yes. And that was enough to keep me from getting sleep last night <3

Goddamn I’m such a woman xD

6 February 2011


I think we’re all built in with our own personal doomsday clock. I think mine is running out. Oops?

7 January 2011


Google?

Did Google really just tell me I should call the suicide hotline? All I did was search up “least painful ways to commit suicide”…

I was curious. I can’t be curious?

7 January 2011


Open up my chest and you will find…

I’m currently doubled over in pain on my laptop. It feels like my chest is going to explode. I have no idea why it hurts so much. I don’t have a voice, my throat is sore. I can’t even scream.

WAIT WHAT. I HAVE PNEUMONIA SYMPTOMS?!

THAT’S GREAT. FUCKING GREAT.

All I really wanted in the past few months and upcoming months was only to be a  little happier and calmer, and heck maybe even get a girlfriend.

But life doesn’t give you any of the shit you want.

I’m stressed out, completely unhappy, FUCKING LOADED ON MEDICATION, and oh. forget love. I could give less of a shit.

Thank you life. This is every teenage boy’s dream.

15 December 2010


the mindless numbing… idon’tfeelanythinganymore

It’s 5:07 AM and I haven’t slept a single minute. I honestly have no idea how I’m going to survive through today. And after school I gotta go to richard’s house for the forensics challenge. At least I get to sleep throughout my free periods.

I’ve been realizing that I no longer give a shit about relationships. How many people are trying to play matchmaker and find me a girl? I give up. I do remember the past and I do remember how much it fucking hurts. So I quit. There’s no point to it. People will break your fucking heart. But your bass guitar will always be there to growl and purr for you :D

HOLYSHIT I’M ADDICTED TO AMAZON.COM! DO YOU GIVE ME A CREDIT CARD. I REPEAT. DO. NOT. GIVE.

I HAVE 126 PERIPHERY SONGS?! THAT’S MORE THAN AN OBSESSION… THAT’S… OVER OBSESSION, IDFK.

okay I need to calm down and finish my homework XD

1 October 2010


Wishes

I wish that time would stop for at least five minutes so I could take a breather before resuming life again.

I wish I knew why I’m feeling like this right now. I don’t even have an explanation for it this time. I don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do.

I wish I could go back in time and change so many things. Especially certain events that left me in the state I am today. But you know what? That’s just me being pathetic.

I wish I could be friends again with the people that I once held close and loved, but that won’t happen because they all hate me.

But overall, I know that these wishes won’t come true. Why? Wishes never fucking come true.

29 September 2010


This Is My Ideal Christmas. Well. Not Really. XD

DRUMMER: “Yo what’s up man I heard you got a new guitar?”
SINGER: “Oh yeah that’s so right, it’s so awesome.”
DRUMMER: “Oh yeah, tell me about that ****.”
SINGER: “Oh yeah it’s got like all these strings and everything. Well you know what? As a matter of fact ima play you a song. It’s about last christmas and it all began with the christmas tree selection.”

SEE MAN I GOT THESE ALLERGIES RIGHT NOW, I WAS TRYING TO TELL MY GIRLFRIEND ‘WHY DON’T WE GET AN ARTIFICIAL TREE THIS CHRISTMAS CAUSE THEY’RE ULTRA COOL AND THEY WON’T MAKE A SMELL LIKE AN ELF FOREST THAT WILL DRIVE ME ****ING INSANE, AND THEY’RE EASY TO ASSEMBLE’ AND THEY LAST FOR LIKE FOREVER OR SOMETHING AND SHE WAS LIKE ‘NO NO NO WE NEED TO GET A REAL CHRISTMAS TREE’ BECAUSE OF THE SPIRIT OF THE SEASON AND ALL THIS BULL****, YULETIDE AND BOUGHS OF HOLLY AND EVERYTHING, AND I WAS LIKE ‘WELL I DON’T HAVE TIME TO GO TO TARGET OR WALLMART IN ORDER TO MAKE AN ORDERLY PURCHASE’ SO I JUST FIGURED ‘****ING RIGHT’ SO ANYWAYS WE JUST WENT AND PICKED OUT A TREE AND I WAS LIKE ‘we’re going to get a real christmas tree’

SO ANYWAYS I WAS CARRYING THIS MOTHER****ER TO MY CAR AND IT WAS GETTING SAP ALL OVER MY JACKET AND THE SMELL WAS DRIVING ME ****ING INSANE AND I COULDN’T TAKE IT BUT MAYBE I’M THINKING ‘MAYBE I SHOULD JUST CHILL OUT, IT IS CHRISTMAS AFTER ALL’ SO I LOOKED AT MY GIRLFRIEND, I SAID ‘BABY, BABY, WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS?’ AND SHE LOOKED AT ME WITH THOSE INNOCENT EYES, EYES AS INNOCENT AS A CHILD PORN ACTRESS OR SOME ****, AND SHE SAID THE NAME OF SOME ****ING PERFUME BY SOME FRENCH GUY AND SHE COULDN’T EVEN PRONOUNCE IT RIGHT, SO I WENT OVER TO THE FREAKING PERFUME SHOP AND I WALKED IN AND THE SMELL, IT JUST ****ING OVERPOWERED ME FROM MY ALREADY CHAPPED NOSE, IT WAS SO COLD AND ON TOP OF THAT I WAS SMELLING THE ****ING CHRISTMAS TREE ALL THE WAY ON THE RIDE HOME, AND I ASKED HER, I WAS LIKE ‘DO YOU HAVE THIS PERFUME BY THIS FRENCH GUY? I THINK HE’S GAY OR SOME ****’ AND SHE WAS LIKE ‘OH YES, YES WE HAVE THAT RIGHT OVER HERE’ I WAS LIKE ‘YOU GOTTA BE ****ING KIDDING ME, IT’S LIKE FRENCH AND GAY AND YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT I WANT’ AND SHE HANDED IT TO ME AND I BOUGHT IT, IT WAS LIKE, A HUNDRED AND ****ING EIGHTY DOLLARS OR SOME ****, BUT I GOT IT BECAUSE I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND. AND THEN I WENT HOME AND I WRAPPED IT AND I PUT IT UNDERNEATH THE CHRISTMAS TREE AND MY GIRLFRIEND CAME TO ME AND SHE WAS LIKE ‘BABY, LET’S GO TO MIDNIGHT MASS’ IT’S LIKE ‘HONEY, COME ON MAN, I’M SORRY, I DON’T FEEL LIKE DOING THAT CRAZY ****’ BUT IT WAS THE CHRISTMAS SEASON SO I WENT, AND WE WENT THERE AND I WAS FALLING ASLEEP IN CHURCH SO I FELT BAD, SO I HAD SOME COFFEE. WHO THE **** HAS COFFEE AT MIDNIGHT?? I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT ****. I’M GOING TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND MY COLON IS GOING TO FALL OUT OF MY ASS. WELL I DID IT BABY ALL FOR YOU, I STAYED WIDE AWAKE AND WE WENT HOME AND BEFORE I KNEW IT, IT WAS CHRISTMAS.

SO YOUR PARENTS CAME OVER, IT’S KINDA ****ED UP BECAUSE THEY’RE SO COOL, LIKE YOUR MOM’S SUPER HOT WITH THE PLATINUM BLONDE HAIR AND I’M SURE THOSE TITS ARE FAKE AND YOUR DAD SAID WE HAD TO SMOKE A JOINT LAST THANKSGIVING. AND THEN YOU’RE JUST SUCH A *****, YOU’VE GOT YOUR CHRISTMAS GIFT, YOU’RE SPRAYING LIKE SIX DOSES ON YOUR NECK AND IT MADE ME ****ING SICK AND THEN BEFORE WE COULD DO ANYTHING ELSE, LIKE JUST, THE DOORBELL RANG AND I OPENED UP THE DOOR AND THERE WAS LIKE THIS LITTLE AUTISTIC KID, IT’S LIKE ‘WHAT DO YOU WANT??!’ AND HE SAID:

"Hello, I’m going to sing you a song"

Dashing through the snow
On a one horse open sleigh
Over the fields we go
Laughing all the way h0h0h0
Bells on bob tails ring
Making spirits bright
Please sir, my mom’s on crack and she’ll beat my ass if I don’t make money tonight

MAN YOU’VE GOT TOURETTES OR SOMETHING, THAT’S WHY I CLOSED DOOR, GET A ****ING CLUE, STOP SINGING, STOP SINGING. OH YEAH YEAH, WALK AWAY, WALK AWAY, SING TO YOURSELF, WALK AWAY, OKAY THAT’S GOOD, THANK YOU, THANK YOU.

ahem

SO ANYWAYS I WALKED BACK IN TO THE HOUSE AND MY GIRLFRIEND CAME UP TO ME AND GAVE ME A HUG AND I’M SICK OF HER ****ING PERFUME AND HER ****ING TREE AND THE ****ING CAT JUST MADE MY NOSE BLEED, SO I STEPPED BACK REAL QUICK, BUT THAT’S A GOOD THING BECAUSE I PUKED ALL OVER THE FLOOR, AND SHE’S LIKE ‘OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU PUKED ALL OVER THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS, YOU ARE SO GROSS!!!’ AND I WAS LIKE ‘LOOK *****, SHUT THE **** UUUUUUUP!!!’ AND ALL OF A SUDDEN LIKE YOUR MOM JUST STARTED FREAKING OUT, LIKE SOMEONE CALLED HER A ***** ONE TOO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST, I MEAN LIKE REALLY CRIED HER EYES OUT! AND IT’S SO ****ED UP CAUSE LIKE, I THOUGHT YOU HAD IT TOGETHER BUT THEN YOUR DAD CAME UP AND TRIED TO PUT HIS ARM AROUND HER AND SHE’S LIKE ‘GET AWAY FROM ME YOU BABY KILLER!’ NOW IT’S JUST A WHOLE BUNCH OF PROBLEMS THAT I DIDN’T WANT TO GET IN TO SO I FOCUSED BACK ON MY GIRLFRIEND AND I WAS LIKE ‘MAN LOOK! YOU HAVEN’T EVEN ASKED ME WHAT I WANTED FOR CHRISTMAS! BUT IT’S OK, I MEAN THERE’S LIKE A GIFT UNDERNEATH THE TREE, BUT I PROBABLY DON’T WANT IT, HOW COULD YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT? YOU NEVER EVEN ASKED ME WHAT I WANTED, BUT THAT’S OK BABY, CAUSE I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS. I WANT YOU TO **** OUT OF MY LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFE!

DRUMMER: “Yeah man, that’s some crazy ****, but anyway, check out what I got for christmas. A new set of drums man, this is going to be the ****.”

PROPS TO PERIPHERY! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e66nDE5D_CU

28 September 2010